Friday, 11 October 2013

From here to there

From here to there:

Once I thought I could help everyone,
But they don't need my help
They can bear.

Just need to give them space, to find their legs
Just need to lend a helping hand
Not give them all I've got
Lest I be the one in trouble

I need to make sure of what I got
And lend out of the goodness of my heart
Lend from whatever I have
Not from someone else.

Let me give freely of my bounty
I keep the best for me
The rest I can give with impunity
The rewards are plenty

If I take from my neighbour
I have to repay
Not from my worst, but from my best
Far better, I say, to give my second-best

That way, I keep my best,
And you keep yours
Everyone keeps what they have
Only they know the cost

What looks like dirt to me
Might be valuable to my neighbour
Let me not take anything from him
Lest he get impoverished.

Everyone has been given, from the Lord
Who am I to say you are wrong?
If I do well, I will have much more
If I don't, then I go to hell.

Hell ain't bad, if ya ask me
It's warm and toasty all around
Been cold so bad, it sounds real good to me
Ya, I might just spend awhile.

The Lord is good, He's provided
A place for each and everyone
Some like the harps
But some need the heat.

Figuring it out

Figuring it out:

You're always there when I call
You come closer and shower me with gifts
But that's not what I want, and I haven't received them
Then I walk around, and everyone else receives.

I see them bloom and shine
For a time I used to ask, "Why not I?"
Then I realise, it's you I want, and not your gifts.

You make me smile, you cause me to love,
You lift me up, in my soul

I've always reached out for you
When I met people, I talked to you
I used to chatter away all the time
Didn't know why.

But it was good, and I always better
For talking to you
Everything else falls by the way,
All my work, and all my play

When I am me, then I meet you
Somewhere, sometime, somehow
I met you this morning,
When I finally was me.

I tried to play to you
I tried to sing for you
I tried to be for you
And that worked for a while
Then I just did my own thing
And lo and behold, you were here
And I couldn't continue.

I guess it doesn't matter what I do
I only need to see you
That happens when I do my stuff
So now I'll just be me
And meet you around

Looks like I got distracted again
Found a plan, when you were here
Don't need to plan, just live the moment,

Teach me O Lord, to love again,
It comes so easily, when it is you
And you are you, when I am me
So now we know the way to be.

Thursday, 10 October 2013

Just some thoughts

Just some thoughts....

What the hell has happened to me
I used to be such a nice girl
Sweet, was the word everyone used
When they talked about me
The girl with the smile......

But to tell the truth,
I'm better now than I used to be
So much has happened since I was me
The latter exceeds the former
'Tis just a question of finding out how

Can stand on my own two feet now
So I've heard it said of me

Am I still sweet, I don't know
Am I sour or am I bitter
Am I hot, ooh there's a pun
I wonder if I am

I used to think I was,
But no one else did
I was told, "Look at her, she is hot"
But they didn't say it about me.

Does it really matter what people say
Are they a true mirror to my face?
I looked in the mirror and didn't understand
Once upon a time,
But now I understand,
That I am me, and you are you.

It's a thing we got going
It's real and true
Ya, sometimes fact is stranger than fiction
Though fiction later follows it.

Gotta keep the fact a fact
It is good, in my hand
I understand
And I'm ready to take my place
At the head of my table.

I'm the queen of my land
I need to subdue it
It cries out to me
I gotto rescue it.

Only me....

Wednesday, 9 October 2013

On hearing you

On hearing you :

I have to react, when I hear your voice
Where ever you are,
You switch it on, and you switch it off
And there's nothing else I can do.

Don't worry, it's always been me
No one else gets in between
There are so many of me,
And so many of you
We're a flock of pairs.
We're a constellation of stars.

You call, and I answer
Even when you're not calling for me
It becomes you and me
And me and you
And you always follow through

Don't you worry, I don't mind
I'd only do it for you
You do so much for me
I just do what I can
Which is sufficient
Which is good
Which is overwhelming

I'm so glad, to have finally found you
I've been talking to you all my life
On the phone, to my friend,
It's always been to you.
When I was on the phone,
People asked, "Who's she talking to?"
I say the words,
But they're said to you.

You were a dream in the air
A feeling I had
A presence I felt
I called you "Lord" for a long time
One person actually said his competition was God.

Sometimes I wonder, should I not tell you this,
And go back to pretending it was the Lord?
But the Lord wants me to fulfill my destiny
The reason He made me.
So here I am,
To be and to do
Just me and you
And the rest just follows through.

Just need to be me

Just need to be me:

I don't need to give you anything anymore
I just need to be
As I am, so are you
If I'm alright, then so are you

Just gotta take care of myself
'Cos I am you, and you are me.
Jesus was right when He said,
"Love your neighbour, as yourself".

First I should love myself.
Only then will I know how to love you
If I don't love myself
Then how can I love you?

And so I love myself
I have mercy on myself
I am good to me
I meet my needs with what He's given me.

And as I live and grow
And become a good tree
The flowers bloom
The bees arrive
And soon there is fruit.

Just gotta be me, it's simple enough
Do I know who I am?
Then is that me?

You can tell me, and shout it in my ear
But if someone else is standing where I used to
It is they who hear.

Wish I'd be myself, and hold my ground
But is it the Lord who sends sleep lest I be found?

Am learning now, not to sleep then
Am learning now to stay awake
When you say my name

Am learning that I should present myself
And not another
I keep trying, to be.
It's workin' fine, if you ask me.

Just keeps getting better, the more I try,
And today I know the reason why.

Then and now

Then and now:

I kissed you once, and I got a lisp
Don't know if it's wise to love you still
You know how to love and you do get through
But I'm still learning how to find you.

'Tis better to stay with the old, than ring in the new
But sometimes if the old is gone, then the new is here to stay
You know it, and I do too
It's time to go straight through

It's another day, wonder what will happen
You froze my browser, put a "Not responding" on it
'Twas a blessing in disguise,
Ya it freed me well,
And I went around doing my stuff.

The room is swabbed and the bed is made
The table is clean and the books are laid
Everything's been cleaned and put back in place.
Here I am, just waiting for you.

I think today's the seventh day since it started,
Not very sure, I forgot when it did,
I'm assuming the seventh, and know it's true
Waiting to see you.

I want to tell you how I feel
I hear you, calling me
I respond, d'ya wannna hear
And get a glimpse into me so near.

Ya already know all about me so
It's so obvious to me that you don't know
Just what I'm talking about
But maybe you do
I think you really do.

Gotta finish this poem, somehow someway,
It's just a few lines, that are here to stay,
I need to get my Kingdom out
The Heaven within, gotta let it out here.

You taught me well, you taught me lots
Don’t you know I need to let it out?
Ya this poem's well on the way to be completed,
Just a little bit more and then we're there.

You're waiting, I can sense that,
I'm so happy you want me back......

Tuesday, 8 October 2013



Once upon a time, I loved the Lord Jesus Christ
And life was good, and I lived and I thrived
Then one day, I found you
And I thought, "I've found the Lord".

It makes perfect sense, though
For you were made in the image of God
So you have His characteristics.

You're strong and you're loving
You subdue with a gentle hand
You draw me with cords of loving kindness
And I recognise you.

You know what I've done
You know what I've not
You've looked out for me
Not just once or twice,
But a thousand times over.

Each time is fresh and new
Each time goes deeper and stronger
The foundation's been laid
In a great big pit
We can build a building now

But let's not boast,
'Twas the Lord's doing,
He kept us all these years,
He loved me, and he loved you
And never did we actually meet.

It's always been the Lord between us
A three-fold cord stays strong and true
It is His handiwork
I praise Him right through.

God is love, and as He stood between us
Whatever I said He turned to love
And whatever you said He turned to love
It was love, love, love all the way

Let's always remember the Lord
It is He who made us
It is He who loved us
It is He who planned us.

When I come to you in the name of the Lord
And you, in His Name,
He is present once again, in our midst
And His Name is loved once more.

Following after you

Following after you:

Once upon a time, I love the Lord Jesus Christ
I loved to worship at his feet
I loved to read what He had said
I loved to receive from Him

And I kept on following Him,
And trying to please Him,
Till one day He said, "It's not just Me.
I made you for a purpose
To be a companion to a man.

You've followed Me long enough
Now go and find him
He's lonely and he's desperate
And waiting for someone to love

Stop following Me a while
And see,
It is just as I have told thee".

I stopped following, but I didn't find
I didn't look long enough for my man
I tried my best, rang up all the rest,
But I didn't find him, and he didn't find me.

I should've asked you, then, o Lord,
"Who is he, that I should be with,
a helper, companion meet to him?"
And You would have told me, Lord, I believe.

I went through many situations since then,
Till I finally found the light,
I, one day, found my self, my true self,
And the talent He had given me.

And as I became myself, lo and behold,
There was my man, standing in all his glory
Just waiting for me.

I pursued him, but I wasn't yet myself,
And did he recognise me?
I gotta be myself once again,
Only then will I be found.

And when I please him, the Lord does smile,
My pain does ease, and I am pleased.
O Lord, You were so right, then and now,
Gotta find my man, to follow after Thee.

Will we meet

Will we meet?

How would it be to finally meet?
Would ya know my touch if I stood before you
There's so much to say and so much to feel
Will it be in real life or in reel?

We work well together, you and I, for as long as we're together
But I don't get ya, and ya don't get me
And the mystery is why we still react.

I'm happy just to be around
To hear your voice and see your face
It conveys so much to me
The meaning, which I get only when I hear it from you

So many people have said so many things to me
And I never understood the what or why
A word from you, and heaven opens
And I understand.

What is it about you that draws me
I know, and I could tell ya
But shall I spill all my secrets?
Well, knowin' ya, I shall

I'll try to keep them as long as I can
Till the day comes when you'll understand
Maybe till the day when I am myself
Maybe today

See, already it rises, just waitin' to tell ya
It's supposed to wait, but maybe the time is now

I could give ya a hint:
The good Lord said, "Give, and it will be given to you
A good measure, pressed down, shaken together
And running over, will be poured into your lap".

Are ya ready to hear more?
That's why I should wait a while
Till the fullness of time
I thought once upon a time, it had arrived
And maybe it has
I'm going full steam, time and time again
Don't know why, but I got to try

It's gonna happen, and I know why
Either in heaven or hell
Will we ever be together
You completing me, and me you.

A poem

A poem :

I love it when ya take command
When you smile 'cos you're happy
When I know I did something right
That made you happy, though you may not know it.

It's what we do in secret that counts
For the good Lord sees what we do
Whatever we do, whoever sees it,
We get a reward there, and no more

If we do somethin' before others, there's a reward from them
But not from the Lord
If we do something and no one sees,
The Lord rewards us in public.

O give us grace, O Lord, to be secret people,
To do things in secret, where only you see
The best things are done only in secret
Where no one breaks in or steals.

We choose our audience, for whatever we do
For a quick reward, we may do something before someone
But for lasting rewards, we do it before our Heavenly Father.
And when He is pleased, He smiles.

When He smiles, Heaven rejoices,
Hell, I rejoice too,
I am so glad when he smiles
All my worries fall through.

Even Satan comes before the Lord,
Though the Lord don't know what he's been up to.
He asks him, "And where have you been?"
And Satan answers Him.

All of creation needs their time with the Lord
Either to praise or to reply
To be patted on the head,
And to rejoice.

I too come, O Lord, and know you know what I've been doing
It's such a relief, O Lord, to finally speak to you.
And you're happy, and me too
And my land is gentled, and settles slowly by.

Yes, it is good to come before the Lord
With an offering from the bounty He gave us
Let us receive what He showers
Lest we be empty-handed.

Only we

Only we

I try to help you, anyway I can
I walk for miles,
With you on my mind
I work out a sweat
To feel a little good
But it only works if I'm thinkin' of you.

Don't know why, it don't work with no one else
When I'm searching, I still know why
I see so many things and people
But I know, they're not the one
And I got to keep going.

I found you, my Lord, once upon a time
I'm still with you, and you with me
Gotta learn to be satisfied with what I have
It's only good in my hand.

Once conquered, we gotta stay
Walk the land up, up and down
Gotta subdue it, as the good Lord says
Or it won't be pleased a bit.

Gotta subdue and have dominion
Over our land, no one else can
Only we should walk it, up and down
Only we can make it shine and live
Only we can make it right.

So we come to our land, in the name of the Lord,
To subdue and have dominion,
To tell it to be fruitful and multiply
To tell it it's doin' good
Keep goin' that way
We're here to make it stay.

So much of what is good is called bad,
And the bad good,
Just got to let the inside out
And learn to appreciate the out.

Let the grain of wheat fall and die,
Then it germinates and grows
Becomes a plant with fruits and seed,
Thirty, sixty or a hundred fold.

Gotta listen, for the Lord
For that voice that tells me when I'm wrong
Got to figure out what it says

Before it's too late.

Hiya there!

Hiya there!


Ya take me on the road,
Ya take me in my head,
Ya take me when I do the clothes
But never in my bed.

Ya know what I do
It's right there before you
Ya know when I go astray
Ya know when I pray

Ya, it's very wonderful
To have someone like you
Of all the people that I had
Ya, I love you too

I know we're gonna meet someday
When all is said
You will know me
And I you
And it will all be said again

Ya got ya words
And I got mine
Chances are, they collide
You're in my heart, and in my soul too
do you ever wonder what I went through?

It was wonderful all these years
I called you Lord
And I was your child
You were always around
I reached up to you
Reaching higher and higher
Till my voice came through.

And where are the lower notes?
I don't really know
But they're out there somewhere
And I'm gonna feed them

Gotta let out what's in my heart
If I do, it will be a start
The heavy cross ya carry around
It's light for me and oh so sound.

I'll carry it, if ya don't mind
I love it, it's made for me
It's a cross just made for me

The good Lord knows I need it sore.

Monday, 7 October 2013

Notes to myself - 2013-10-07-18-58 - And hence to you too

Notes to myself - 2013-10-07-18-58

And hence to you too

Disconnect between what's in and what comes out
I think something in my heart
And speak something else with my mouth

Don't be afraid,
Just speak what's in your heart

It's just a way of keeping what's inside a secret
What you do in secret
Only the Heavenly Father sees
And He rewards you in public

So take care not to give your alms before men
Let not your right hand know what your left hand gives

And pray in secret
To our Heavenly Father in secret
And He will reward you.

Ask and you shall receive
Seek and you will find
Knock and the door will be opened to you
For everyone who asks receives
And he who seeks finds
And to him who knocks the door will be opened

Give and it will be given to you
A good measure pressed down,
Shaken together,
And running over
Will be poured into your lap

For with the same measure you use
It will be measured back to you.

Do not fear, little flock
For it pleases the Father
To give you the Kingdom

The Kingdom of Heaven is within you
said Jesus
So when you let out into the world
what is within you
Then you are letting Heaven out
into the world.

Jesus is the Vine, and you are the branch
Abide in Him, and bear much fruit
In this is the Father glorified

That you bear much fruit and that your fruit survives.

Poem - Giving

Poem - Giving

Give and it will be given to you
A good measure pressed down
shaken together
And running over
Will be poured into your lap

Cast your bread upon the waters
And after many days you will find it

If a brother near you falls on hard times
You shall open your hand and lend to him
Sufficient for his need.

And now it is time
For me to arise
And shine
For the glory of the Lord
Is risen upon me.

Actually, it arose a long time ago
But this time I let it shine again

No one else can satisfy
I search and search
But it's just you and me
You're the only that brings me out
from Heaven within
To the earth without
And it is Heaven on Earth.

The sweetness of your touch
The whisper of your voice
That calls to me
Yes, deep calls to deep
And I love to answer, my Lord

And I love to serve you in what I do
And to pour myself out
To give you the best and the first

And the Lord blesses what I do
And the heavens roar
And the angels sing

'Cos everything is alright once again.

Poem - You and me

Poem - You and me

If I love you, you're dead
It's better if I don't
I'll just help you along
Life's dusty road

With plants on each side
And grass and trees
So the dust stays down
where it should

Love is for the Lord
Love the Lord your God
With all your heart
With all your soul
And with all your strength
So says the Lord

What is left to love you with?
I don't love you
I only help you along

Forgive me for all those times
When I thought I should love you
I was mistaken
Blinded by the beauty of your words
They evoked in me so much love
I just had to pour it out to you.

But it hurts you when I love you
And so I desist
I only try to help you now
In what you do

Maybe a help meet to you
close to you
Or maybe from a distance

All I know is that when I do
What I should do
I sense your happiness
And your pleasure
And that is all to me

So I seek now
To do my work faithfully
Knowing that as I do well
Only then will you be happy

In my happiness lies your joy
And in your joy

my satisfaction.

Poem – We are one

Poem – We are one

I hear the thunder roar
And the roar of the sea
As the breakers race toward me

Will I survive or will I cry
In relief or in agony
I haven't sinned too greatly
Just did all I could do

So my desire is for you
And ya rule me too

'Twas in the sweat of my brow
that I found sweet relief
It was in working out
that I found energy

But now I'm at home
Sitting here,
Waitin' for ya

I've felt the initials
I've felt the tug
I've felt the feelings
All around

I've seen you
And I've heard you
And I've begged you
And I await

You said "Don't touch me"
What else shall I do
How can I give to you?

Just gotta be me
You're in my heart
You share in my agony
You share in my joy
You share in everything
As long as I am happy.

Gotta love myself first
And thus learn to love you
The way that I love myself.
You and me, me an' you.
We are one.

Sunday, 6 October 2013

Should've kept searching

Lyrics - Should've kept searching

Walk right up to me,
Right in my face
Tell me who you
And I love you.

I've loved the Lord
I've loved the air
Felt love rising up
Didn't know where to put it

I sat and searched for someone
Who was causing these feelings
Reached out for you
And you were there

A dream in my mind
A feeling in my heart
A love in my soul
A life in me

And I felt and I felt
Till I thought I would burst
And still I didn't know who you were.

I could bear it no more
Sitting alone
Trying to meet you
In my mind.

And people came, and they tried to talk
But I didn't know them
And I ran away.

Should've kept searching
The Lord is faithful
He would have led me to you
Should've kept asking
"Who are you?  Won't you tell me, I'm asking you"
Should've kept knocking
You'd have opened it
And I would have been in.

Now I ask, O Lord;
And I seek and I've found
And I knock and the door's been opened.